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The Who, What, How, When, and Why
... Okay, so maybe not the Who part, but I can sure talk about the What, How, When, and Why in regards to me and Pokemon and Pokemon-related collecting.

If you take a look at my Profile (which, yes, I know is very empty), there is a single sentence which reads, "Because some things are simply never forgotten."

"Because some things are simply never forgotten," is the Why I got into Pokemon and into Pokemon collecting and it is also why I have kept up with Pokemon on some level despite how old the franchise is and how old I was when Pokemon first came out.

I was a teenager when Pokemon first made headway into the United States and as Pokemon attracted the attention of mostly children and people younger than me at the time, me being older than most of those people felt slightly dissuaded from poking into Pokemon. My younger sibling, however, did get into Pokemon and I guess you could say that I rode along their coattails into the fandom - not really interested but not entirely disinterested, either.

I guess it's a bit strange, then, to say that where I have become more engrossed with Pokemon over time, said sibling has long since more or less lost interest. So how did I - someone who was initially not-very-interested - manage to retain my interest while someone who had a lot of interest completely lost theirs?

To answer that, it's time to backtrack to that sentence that I wrote in my Profile and answer the question of what, exactly, IS that thing that I can't forget.

What I can never forget is the first Pokemon movie and the related Pokemon whom I can never forget is Mewtwo.

I had a difficult time growing up and at the time the first movie was released, I was very much a loner who was feeling bitter, resentful, and resigned, and who had trouble trusting people - especially authority figures. Considering the character of Mewtwo, it's no wonder, then, that I experienced a feeling of a sort of kinship with him when I encountered him through the movie.

To be honest, experiencing the movie for the first time was something of a surreal thing.

I hadn't expected to be moved by the storyline - a storyline that a lot of people said could never be deep or make you think, but I was. I hadn't expected to find anything worth my extended attention - I mean, it's Pokemon, but I did. I hadn't expected to experience empathy and then sympathy - Pokemon can be a very two dimensional thing, but I did.

All in all, the effect on me was startlingly and unexpectedly profound and where I can't say it drastically changed or altered my life, I would like to say that it breathed into me some of the resilience, drive, can-do attitude, and independence that I have now and that it also gave me a measure of peace as well to know that I wasn't the only one who felt the way I did.

I guess you could say that after that movie, Mewtwo sort of became my friend in a way and when my younger sibling gifted me with a Mewtwo and Mew keychain set shortly after for a birthday present, I kept them clipped close to my person - as a reminder of how the movie had made me feel - and that - along with my Pocket Pikachu and Pocket Pikachu II that I acquired not too long later - was my first inadvertent step into collecting Pokemon-related things.

Fast forward ten plus years and... well.

Hot damn, but I guess some things just never change do they?

I still feel the same way I did when I first saw the movie and my current and growing collection of Mewtwo-centric items is a testament of my fondness for the Psychic Pokemon who, despite his upbringing and the odds against him, could.

So yeah.

That's my story.

Here's to ten plus years of Pokemon and here's to you, Mewtwo.

Even though you're not real, I wish I could say thank you to you because you really are just THAT awesome.

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You're not alone in being deeply affected by Mewtwo.



And even though he isn't real, you CAN thank him - you can thank him by continuing to bring others into the fandom, you can thank him by promoting work that glorifies him and denouncing fanfiction, artwork, etc. that shows him as a heartless villain that should be offed without a hint of guilt; you can continue to be a public show of someone proud to be within the Mewtwo fandom. The next wave of Mewtwo fans won't exist if the current generation does not continue to make itself known!

(Oddly enough, most of the tactics I would suggest to do such fall along religious lines, but being involved with Mewtwo has done more for me than any religion could have, so take that how you will.)

Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts with me and it makes me happy that someone else understands though it also equally saddens me that someone else has experienced hardship because of bullying and being different and whatever else.

It's funny that you should mention the ways I can thank him because I just realized that my choice to carry my Mewtwo plush backpack around and my Pokewalker with Mewtwo in it despite being an adult and whatever (I say screw societal 'norms' and 'expectations' if they don't make sense) was and is a not-so-conscious effort on my part to promote him and show other people that 1) I'm not ashamed that I love Pokemon, still, and that 2) Mewtwo means something important to me. Work aside, he goes with me pretty much everywhere that is safe for him (I try to keep him away from super crowded restaurants for example because he might get either snatched, banged around, or dirtied by food) which is why his recent seam splitting is a bit upsetting.

I've walked into who-knows-how many public places with my LittleTwo attached to my arm and though I have received a few funny looks, I have - more often than not - been positively approached by other Pokemon fans and Mewtwo fans and sometimes, people who don't know who or what he is, and in all cases, I always say that Mewtwo is my favorite no matter what.

And yes, I, too, have found more good in having Mewtwo around/being involved with Mewtwo than being involved with religion. Not to offend other people who find their answers through religion or anything, but this is simply me being honest about my own experiences.

That said, let me share a little story with you:

Before I got my LittleTwo, I had been working at a new job for a few months and owing to chronic health issues, I was under a lot of stress from both the new job and managing my own health which was reacting in response to the new stress of a new job. I had been unwell on and off ever since the start of my job - trouble sleeping (which was a new thing for me because of all problems I have had, sleeping and sleeping well was not one of them), literal illness, etc... and it seemed like nothing could improve things.

LittleTwo entered my life around this time and from my first look at him out of the box (I had adopted him from someone outside of the community who ended up becoming a friend, so he already had some significance attached to him before I received him), I knew he was something special - just like the Mewtwo he represented was.

I gave him a tape bath and then without much further ado, took him with me to sleep tucked up against me and for the first time in 3 months straight, I slept deeply and fully and when I awoke, I felt refreshed. Ever since, I have always kept a place for him when it's time to sleep and after all this time, I can honestly say that his presence around me has allowed me to sleep easier, sleep better, and get well faster.

For this reason and more, I have to say that my LittleTwo and the Mewtwo he represents has breathed more life into me and means more to me than what most people would expect - much less understand.

i love mewtwo as well it was one of my best friends as a kid i almost wanted to die when a small fire gutted my mewtwo collection

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